November

Make this page by myself, proud !!!
Now go to december

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8T8fTE74ak
musée ghibli

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don't eat a snack at avenue de la couronne, not good for your belly, that was my final world before a few days
i think i'm gonna take a break with telling my life like that every ten minutes on a screen and return on paper as before, it's a test for a better health maybe
Just make the biggest insomnia it was horrible
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RjKi64rX8w8
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Stop thinking of how things could be better and take a rest, good night internet, everything will be fine and you're doing great

Found a perfect box for winter penpaling yipi

Maybe i can do vinted almost every evening for a mounth as a student job for try, i think i am omnubilé par l'argent là, j'stress un peu

i tried to do my december prompt but it dosn't please me for the moment, i think it's just because is not filled idk i am happy how turned this one actually

nightttt tired make everything i must do yeay (only not respond to 1 mail who takes a lot of energy, later later) vinted is really time consuming but if i sell everything is going to be good money yeay tomorrow visite d'appart, sent message to proprio, hope every thing is going to be ok, cross my fingers

https://youtu.be/0Xqomv_psXQ?si=tiTzzxiykUS98Zk8 le me right know

friend call me, i'm dumb because i'm like "i'm so lonely and everyone wants me to go" it's just the anxiety who's speaking Louuuu, listen to your friends not your inner demons (they know how to swim)

was too shy and anxious to speak to anyone lolz i'm petting Métal and Chacha, have to do my vinted business
paradox of writing "anticapitalism" on a wall before going sell on vinted, that's liiiife

want to make a list of quotes i like
like the interior of insas
found a cool toilettes with a radiator and a nice blanck door

Cant wait to be in my new place also and create a house with my fwiends, have to make good goodbye to here before i leave

I'm a little sad to quit here because i was started to have a nice little warm and cosy basement, but i think that i'm a little to "well being" alone so it's could be isolation little by little and it's not want i want, i will write a letter to this place, i started to be attached like everytime is the same patern huhu

when we were rapping together with iano maybe i could be more shared, dosn't to be shy with them and ask them to do it too, like they're talented asf

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G-V4Fi8uQCY hang out with my girl, don't talk to me

Hate the money retribution in this country like if you invested all the mr's security in culture and logement, the people were more happy, we are broke and we can't eat some doesn't even have a bed bruh controle destruct lifes and provoc injustice, we are so fucking stressed to be alive in this city

hate man and what they do to my friends aaaaaaa

hate when people cancels other sparkles, let people be cute and joyfull

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jTfluv3ErA before everything watch that
her collection of stickers is infinite
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xy9mMp4SHgQ

have to plan and respond to messages
woke up at 12am aie aie aie, don't have rice cake with choco aie aie aie

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It was so nice, it's already midnight, have to zzzz for being good tomorrow but want to share, i will write in my new sketchbook, love it btw !! so happy to have a more little one than before, maybe can have a more little one for letters like before, on the road is super handy
now stop and clean the space, go to concert with pitifraté

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvtuH8hS5KY&list=RDMM&index=3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9DiJJVfZXUk&list=RDMM&index=2
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEdLWw_3RAs&list=RDMM&start_radio=1&rv=9hWgbGJ2iAk hardest drug

Did all the roman graphique let's gooo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXqkBS4upcQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gXdAIQKuP_k ça pompélop au rdp
L'AMOUR TOUJOURS version nightcore i'm living in the right place

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRd-SrEEX9c&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=36 letsgoooBXHELL

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6eLXp_1eps&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=19

LUCA BLOQUAGE IS A SUCCEEEEESS LETSGOOOO

really want to have the mp3 upgrade on neocities

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZc9r8uSpfA&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=14
Friend came for the blocage, they are so sweet cool and nice, hanw love them

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lnzcT3CJ2Cs&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=13
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITCdpdIKoj0&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=11
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pi6EXxI2hio&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=6
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dz9kKIzAsxY&list=RDkJ3uYA7p3m4&index=4 mmmmh miam miam

little bro is going to take a nap at my place before while i'm geeking in the rdp bahaha

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehE-jc3kzKE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TBmyfWKp8k0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REeX0Dyo2U8 going to achille concert this night !! is my ex-colloc who draw and make art for him, dont want to see him, hope we dont cross eachother but if it is, it's life and that okkkk

have told to proprio that i'm leaving my little heart is tout serré, they were really kind with me
theirs respond blblbblbl so nice sobsob human can be cute

Make a new page for rdp inventory (i accord me 2h for working on so until 6pm after i'm free and will hug trees)

There is this very toxic relationship of dependance with aide sociale là ark berberk

hiii new video of lilhoneybear https://youtu.be/G-V4Fi8uQCY?si=iwJWVoknGQm-K-gG keep it for later night sweet moment
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jTfluv3ErA for later also
this kind of videos are my drug really

i think i respond to everyonnnes gotchayeay
ono aide sociale must lockin before everything

i have a big headache. i'm at the rdp, mking the inventory, and smell books. Find some free clothes and a new sketchboooook yeay. Want to read everything and there is some really big ones with a loooot of texts but seem so good like cyber feminism (the brick is big big biig). I'm going to eat fanzines. (i'm there for collecting them for tomorrow stand at insas)

Crunch with bro who gives me advices for having the cpas in forest the next time (like having a free chat with someone who help people to have a statut d'artiste) i crunched gluten so i'm bluuuuurrrrppp ono not good but it was free and really tasty

The fact that i don't want to give my site because of my diary makes me think about having a second one just for that

I made a sale on vinteeeeeed

Okeyyyy didn't sleep until 3 or 4 am, now i have 30 min to organise my week before going share a meal with my bro 'cause "il a pas le droit de grêve en tant qu'indépendant.e"
there is this super book or "affaire" that our law teacher give us but it's in english, i have to improve oyo

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Midnight walk hits different, love that, good night internet

Making the draft for every pages on the blog letsgooooo it's midnight i think i can go home

Maybe i can sell creation on vinted but it's a no go plateform because of the owners, i have to think about that because maybeee

i already have troubles with messages (if i don't respond it doesnt mean i don't love you, really) and now i have notifications of vinted and for visits, i'm tired

This finance situation makes me really feel who i was before cpas huhu terrible situation of finding a way to make little money just for necessities (i am very lucky to have a home whatever it happen to me)

it's 9pm, i have two hours for taking the photos for vinted gooooooo
Now it's 11pm i did my nails in red and feeling like a grande dame tiping on my computer

I really want to create a page for each friends and say how i feel about them sincerely by memes

I have one very good camera (700, new is 1200 - father heritage he's a photographer) new rock (100 - i never wear them) that i can sold i think. Mum told me that she have a lot of shoes to sold that could help her a lot maybe i can make a vinted account and make petit argent pour manger, can see that as a student job, i used to do that it was so time consuming and no fun but hey don't have a lot of choice here

Tomorrow i will annonce to my big brother (not relied to my mum by blood) my finance situation and oyoyoyoyooo it's going to be a story aha

Come at mum's place for helping with rearranging the space, do her bed and cleaning. I told her about all is going with cpas, changing home, friends and being broke. I was terrified because i know that she wants help me even if i don't ask but it's not possible (she doesnt have a lot of money but have a house and that relieves me (makes me angry to think that having a home is a privilege but it's true) she's a solo mum with a artsy child ahaha ono i'm going to be débrouillarde!! She helped me a lot and helps me everyday with her love (am i too much?) i was very positive and everything is going to be ok ! She believes in me and i believe in her ♡

Saw that i write tuesday for mardi ET jeudi, makes me laugh i don't know which one is it aha

We are organising a gouter at poetesse's house, i'm sobbing ;=; just the right time!

Envy who send me emo songs make me so happy and nostalgic, have to make them a playlist too !!

I think it's never a waste of time to make things pretty, think otherwise is mysogine

perfect timing match yipiii
my clothes are cleaning themself in the washin'machin
did the annonce aaaaaaah

want to go out but there is some indoor stuff to do

Today to do lit:

(important) Respond to mails
Respond to messages
Organise studio visite (and make photo tcheeeckk)

Wash my clothes (en cours)
Wash me
make a sophro
Clean my studio tcheckkkk (not everything but didn't the time)
kitchen done bathroom done
go see maman? (i'm at her place ♡)
go to the park? cinema?

I'm sad that i don't go to vss manifestation but i really need to make plan and notes and take care of my body and space. It's happen, don't do the burn out militant huhu
No pression, maybe go to nova tonight? Make a list

Me with any administrative paper
howl

Really think that agenda is not the more efficient but that's ok tier

wednesday is such a weird word for french people

Understand my error of yesterday this night; it was just because i used sidenav huhuhuhu ono dumb but it's ok now i understand !! But don't know why margin top doesnt work on this div GET IT it's just "top" don't understand why ahahah yeay so happy code is so cool

blablabla mmmh doesn't work interessant ; padding right will push the text to the left

I slept !!!! Woke up at 11 am (ono that's late), went to buy rice cakes with dark chocolate but is not the right brand (not so good), it's okay. Thought about give cv to delhaize, but..............i don't know, it's a very controled area and it doesn't match who am i. The guy at the caisse was quit chill and goofy but i'm not sure this place is for me (don't like the lights)

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Tomorrow rejoindre la qafa à 14h il me semble, nothing in my head, have to remake agenda tomorrow aaaaah schedule i'm bad at it

Make all position absolute !! (maybe all summary detail?)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B_tA0D-dGMc it's been a whiiile, she talks about living in countryside and city makes her anxious~ She's moving in and her haul is so goooood, makes me want to go shopping but i'm broke fufufu i'm going to decorate my website it's free, i think to do a verticale line of trickets near the sidenav

Understand that position absolute i think but i can't make the happy things goes to the right mmmmh why right: 0; doesn't work

Listen to sign0 chouchou en boucle it's calm me

Create a second sidenav yeay it was margin top

Cherche la réponse avec les gens.

internet is not good this evening and that's ok, have to finish traditionnal stuffs ~~ let's draw and write. Computer wil wait tomorrow. Hope i will have a good night, tomorrow is vss manifestation

Ok now i'm a little bit more calm. I put the gifts envy gave me, they're so gorgeous just like them. They smell so good !! it makes me so happy to see furniture of them at my place it's like we're share a space ♡♡♡ very precious !

a good advice for socialisation and social energy : it's ok to not being at 100% everytime and don't blame yourself, you did it and it's super cool.
Blame and judging takes to much energy, it's like having a discussion about apple or windows when you have linux
Take a little time to move your vision and take a deep breath. And think about justice social. That's my tip. I just have a special interesst maybe but here it is, it's calm me down.

Be visible
It's good when people know who you are, it's ok. Take that for a validation. It's not a trap.

Have the idea of a belgian politic class in l'erg because on comprend r

need to peeeee in the middle of a talk ono

Purple hair on Sable is so cooooooool

Be at school on a saturday is very confusing

see that my sites are not phonefriendly

i'm going to do a sophro before leaving, say no to life during 30min

it's already 1pmmmmm

Did the side noooote yipiii, just have to style it but i nailed it yeay, have to make a second for agenda

Need to be very warmy dressed!! (don't know how to lol)

Respond to everyone :))) Have to aide sociale but after crunch an apple and slurp a green tea

Need to check the workshop and see sablebleble-chan
14 16 at erg, scan and print the crepe affiche ~~ we are so well organised this time yipii

Didn't sleep well, was really overstimulated by my body and sounds, but at least i have sleep a bit. it's already 11am snif, read the end of "dans leurs pas", want to scan it for the rideau de perles !!

Tcheck list of today : have to think about atelier du toner, fanzines and handivergence. Make the crepe affiche. Editate journal with agenda and to do list on each sides. want to add some of my class notes. Respond to wendy, titi and envy, rappeler jeffrey, and say to proprio. Maybe go to theater and see envyyyy, may ask to iano if they want to do the bar with us maybe? After 7pm cause iano is working and envy have to go until 7pm so it's a match

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https://ghostingpen.neocities.org/ love this site !!

note for tomorrow= have to think about atelier du toner, fanzines and handivergence. Make all the affiches i have to do (crepes, ce, for aps and others, maybe lorem ipsum for annoncement de sortie). Editate journal with agenda and to do list on each sides.

Head hurt after all this tiptap coding sessions, lets draw on paper until falling asleep, good night internet ~

Maybe change my "guestbooks" to "commission" on my pro web site and do the guestbook on the personnal, like numerical letters you can send to me?

Have my periods, let's be nice and soft with yourself Lou please but i dont want to stop, so much things i want to explore and dooooooo want to create so much, sleep can wait isn't ?
i'm such a fan of zeste that Sable showed me
didn't talk about my day !! Saw my friends, have to say that ! Cutting iano's hair ! (want to improve my skills, in good condition i'm sure i can do them the perfect cut, it was sososo cool to do)
Saw all the girlyguys of ce, it was nice, maybe i can connect a bit more with them in the future. Can be fwiends? Don't know if i match with theirs moods but maybe? They talk in a certain way that i don't really catch already, i don't know how to explain. Maybe i just need to feel more confortable. Get used to the rythm
We can't organise a show that people want to install in a too expensive space and it makes me sad. Wants to be a pirate who steals from the richs but don't know how to do it without repréhension. Athena is a ally in this way of thinking and he knows how things morks.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH rearranging all my website let's gooooo test a lot of things and connect everythings, i think its ok now, not perfect but hey it's ok

Mardi 2 décembre midi ce

Eat my rice cakes of chocolate, athena read his book. Talk about tdor, he was so touch. Gave him an apple.
Had my cv on me everywhere everytime is a good idea but gave it to a bioshop with "every day in the evenings" is not very smart huhu

Want infinite rice cakes with chocolate, soup and crepes sans gluten

I think to go to a linux class, je n'ai qu'à briser mes chaines avec windows là

New video of baoniaaaaaaaan hanw need to have someting very good to eat during the show (dosnt have anything lol) and meadoooow (everytime i see their videos i wanna hangout in the middle of the night)

my pc on me in the bed is like a bouillote, make me think of what i wrote previous winter

It's very sunny outside, after did what i had to do with messages (aaaaarg take so much energy) i can go ouuuuuut

Lesson of yesterday, if i want to go to a place, i just can go. I can be free.

had a dream with my ex, he was working in a tatoo shop in the middle of nowhere and i went with iano et rosa, we looked at an infinite menu. he didn't let me speak
when i woke up, i was already tired, his face is so clear in my mind
i think a lot of him lately, and it's normal even of i don't want to, i have to accept, 10 years of relationship leave marks
Mia send me a message yesterday for my old matress that i lend her who is at their place where i lived before her with him so i think it's just that. I don't want to go and see him, don't want to hear of him and this creepy place where i suffered. Nothing. Maybe i can just leave it.

have to respond to titi=> tcheeeeeck enfin, mia => tcheck, proprio => tcheck, erg aide sociale i have the flemme but did iiiiiiit
Yeay Louuuuu you did it

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https://www.zeste.ee/index.html Sable m'a montré !

i am explosed

TODAYYYY check list :

Clean my appartement, maybe have a visit today (it's already 12 am ;=;) => tcheeeeek

Update ninjablog with newwwws want to talk to them => make the draft have to post it

See Athena for transmission d'infos pour les grêves => did iiiiit it was so intense hope he's going well

News to Wendybéboulove and respond to Titi message

Tell my proprio that i quit in january

Go to T dor at 18h30 place d'albertine or 19h grand carmes => We diiiiiid, only go to grand carmes and it was so beautifull. The concert was incredible, love the person with their guitare who was playing very softly and at a time they tap and loop and it was just like a heartbeating in resonance with the death, like we were all connected. There were people laying on the floor crying and hugging eachother gently under all the notes and flowercrafts we did. And the gluten free crepes mmmmmmmmh vivi recipe, have to ask her

reaaaaaly want to make a second blog more personnal because this one is supposed to be professional

But befor everything i think i need to take a shower ___________________________________

i really must write my day it was sososogooood but i will try tomorrow ! just here to tell my futurself that i have to send a message to w and m tomorrow !

update of yesterday :

sooo go to school, print some zines, crossed Malo and after Sable who invited us to join a calligraphy class. They did so so well and we feel their styles through their letters it's magical , make my cv (because have to find en job ono) Maloo gave me a letttttteeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr blblblbblbl i am decomposed in butterfly and sparkles. We cherched pieces of tissus like little racoons at the plateau hihi After that joined Yona and rejoined by Sable who rested a litlle, she helped me with cutting zines, instructions were not clear aha. Talk to Vivi, crossed Sid and No, that was so good to see them ! and we went to rassemblement with Sable and Isa (who went back to her house because it was very cold and rainy and repression was annonced). We were not prepared well, next time rainy outfit and no bag; i had all my stuff like my computer so my head was occupied by that. And we arrived after a long discussion of preventies (maybe i'm a little to dramatic and scary when i'm stressed ono but i prefered that people knows the risks and be able to say yes or no to what they going to, even if this is hypotheticaly the worse, we know how far cops can go). It was so beautifull, i really like when there is red smoke all around the people who sing and clap hands. Sable was too funny with sound effect and we said booooouh everytime GBL was announced! after an hour or two, don't remember, after the discours we're off because of the cold weather and our wet stuff. And we didn't want to go to gardav ~ Sable went home by bike, she texted me that she saw a lot of cops on the road with canon à eau and i went by foot listen to music. Received a message from people their and i think that it went ok, must tcheck today. After i didn't slept until 4am snif

Friends have a place for me in januaryyyyyyyyyyy> ___________________________________

I did so amazing today !! went everywhere i was planned, be in touch with people, laugh, be present and i was sad at a moment but i was not alone and i was able to speak to friend and everything is going to be well. Text someone for a colloc in january maybe i'm not going to squat in my friends's appartement and all my furnitures and things will be at a place :))) we will seeeeeeee
need to find a petit boulot and that.s (!!!!) make me nervous

I'm sad for my studio, i was planning thing for decoration and constructed something where i started to feel ok.
if i find something i guess. Need to tell to the proprio, find someone who wants it before 1january and refaire un fucking demenagement ahahhaahahah

Shera said so sweet things to me about my drawings and so, she makes wonderfull films with her collectif !!! She asked me why i have so horrific piercings while i'm so sweet and i speak about furry with her ahahaha
is piss me of so much that people makes fun of me in the street, i miss when i was by bike

crunchcrunch vite avant l'ag

i can't have aides sociales soooooo yeah will be homeless next month, i'm very lucky to have a bed becaude of family and friends but i rage a litlle
need to make a plan while i'm home
workshop is going very very well so happy, teachers like my jobbbb and we did stretching with iano, laughing so much it was so heartwarmer
want to penpaling but have to living outside

have to send the "where???" mail to cpasss => tcheck
mon dossier passe aujourd'hui au conseil on croise les doigts fortfort

today we are going to the brass for experimentating space ! maybe i can try live painting ? i will ask to my teacher
Don't forget Lacambre at 18h30

made a sophrologie before rompiz, 30' is the best !

i think the nightmares come from the fact that i ate yesterday evening

made severals really vivid nightmares but at least i slept

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maybe i can make a heart on the wall with my dentelles and put some cute notes i received in it~~

The fact that Moon proposed to Aylin to touch her finger to become friends make me smile, it's just like with Malo todayyy

Celebrate little things

tomorrow i will be with my friend, i grab this idea for passing the night with serenity

si tu déprimes en semaine va à l'erg, si tu déprimes le week end fais un tour en forêt ou appelle tes copaines

AGENDA = tomorrow is aps at brass, 18h30 réu à lacambre puis rompizzzzz. mercredi is rejoindre vizette 17h30 à la bag puis place bethleem puis projection rue des tanneurs, jeudi aps at brass et commémoration (je chiall déjà pour ça depuis 1 semaine, mais c'est bien on sera toustes ensemble), vendredi ??? workshop, samedi et dimanche on verra bien hein y a manif vss mais voir maman et mamy
le lundi 24 + mardi + mercredi grève, pleins de trucs
1 decembre CREPES CHEZ VIVI (trouver une crepière) et le 03 vente des crèpes

les keufs ont peur des crèpes

Maybe i can make a list of what it's intimicy for me and with who i want to share it
also touching, i know its connect people together and i have to chill out with that, sometimes i want hug and i don't have to blame myself about that but i can't

my friend took a nap at my place and showing my intimicy is just what i need for growing up and don't be so anxious about myself, thankyousomuch

eating noodels, 23.5, miaom

I have the feeling that i miss things, don't do what people except from me or do cultural things, i really wish but days are shorts and nights are long moments of sleep expectations; don't have the energy and i end up just showing not acting or exagerate aspects of me by compensation

Lovely dayyyy lovely liiiiife Lou don't be depressed please evrything goes so well, this week will be fine why i have to be so negative ???

I'm making a page where i can organised my notes together for school, a friend does that and give me the link i copy their code source, i'm felling like filling their house huhu

I just remembered that i had class this morning at ulb and it's a class that i love

Today we are organising a workshop around our pirate library project, i love this group so much and what we put together for achives. Love the design, the vibes, the result and the persons. Lou everything is all right, it's ok, dont cryyyyy

i feel so much anxiety, i am sick, i have to considering myself like that and it's okey
take it easy

This night it was impossible for me to sleep, read poetry, checked my phone "just for see" and it was 5 am 30 I don't know what i'm doing wrong my thoughts was so so negative, insomnia is a killer

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It's too hard for me to do my agenda and it's ok, i will ask for help to my friend because they struggle too and we are stronger together , thank you so much I'm well surrounded

Some of my moving in boxes are still hard to open

i repared my bookshelf and put my collection of tsubasa reservoir chronicle in it (back in the days i had the urge to resell my clamp collection for money and i'm glad i didn't), make a special space for sakura card captor, she looks like a god in a corner of my room as she is in my head
makes me thought about when Neptune and i exchange mangas and she read tsubasa reservoir chronicle and gave me les ateliers des sorciers, it is one of those very precious memories !!
Maybe i can do a special page of my interest for clamp on the web ? it has passed a little but i remember that i've been very obsessed lol

My friend Neptune got an exhibition in Bergen like omg i'm so proud, it's surely fantastic i wanna gooooooo

i think that you have to pay for having mp3 on neocities ??

i heard kids who learn piano in my neighbourhood and it's sososo cute 'cause they also sing while laughing at the same time

i'm up in the sky of joy everytime that my friends said my name

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RqS49MhoGqE aaaah i love artists so much, saw a live painting on the background, i always dreamed about do that, i must take time to make a solid list of projects i want to do (i'm so invested in the lives of ytbeurs i follow ;=;)

my sensory issues don't allow me to listen to music up to 10 minutes and it's piss me of. "ferme un peu ta gueule" said a guy in the street

rearranged my wardrobe by using used cardboxes that was taking place and it's very satisfying

check agenda, my tears aaaaaah please don't cry

my lunch is actually so freaking good, miom lou cuisto, can just take fews bouchées because it's hyper nutritiv and i'm aleady full. Want to share it with my friends tomorrow !! Put some pourpier on it and i'm feeling like a prince

waking up in crop top makes me feel like a sexy butch. going out in pijama with a hoodie buying rice cakes

reread "nuit blanche" de dostoievsky this night after watchin cloot's video and i stoped 'cause i can't anymore when the author discribe the little mounth of a women every page like berkberk
it's weird when i thought about my favourites writers when i was younger, i'm like very sure that i was already in accord with my present self, just not the right environnement
"les pissenlits" de Kawabata was one of my favourite book, maybe i can drop an eye in it and being disgusted too ahahaha ono 1Q84 or les fleurs du mal (memorized bunch of poésie of him 'cause he was talking about cats but in comparaison to a women, it's cringe me so much)

wheerrrre???
update : therrrre aaaaah want to buy it for iano too for theirs sourcils star faaaangs

Today check list :

Make dinner, clean my fridge, vacummm and put the trash out of my little basement => tchekkk

Do my "more about myself" coding draft and november month because we re already the 16 .-. make my agendaaaa

going to atelier pancarte with the qafa collectiv, i must pompélop myself => it's at ulb so i freez, thought it was at dk safe place

making a draft of my wlw light novel uwu

didnt cry yesterday, so happy for myself and my cracked eyes !! Did a plan for the web site this night (i'm so productive when the moon is up in the sky awooooo)

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that was so good dear
keep this video there for tomorrow moewning

it's raiiiiining, my hair are so soft, i have my bike that's super dngerous

Think about Sable when i see all my tabs open now, she likes optimisation and i'm made for chaos

offered gifts to my mum, she explained to me her next tattoo project and we talked about self confidence and emprise

Collecting pieces of tissus for my jellyfish lamp, can't wait

Watching 23.5 heals me at some point, i watched (maybe too much but it's okay no shame here) yaoi/hentai and hetero shojo anime or k drama in my life that destruct the vision of myself in a relationship (social determinism in gender rules) and all pop culture i guessss
23.5 is very not perfect but every scene makes me giggling and i relate way too much oupsi

23.5

a wlw show a day keeps the doctor away

i have the feeling deep inside of me that i belong to be surrounded by trees and leaves with cats as friends
feeling like a petit pétard mouillé

just had a reminiscence of a nightmare where i had a huge amount of cartouches but there is none who match my stylo. that was so intense

updated envy's blog : tcheck
make my about page : tcheck (+ i make "my project" one !!)
going see some trees, maybe wash my draps and housse de couette : tcheck
reorganise my wardrobe cause it's look like 1euros at the thrifting shop atm
make a page didicated for each friend and i found perfect memes for everyone that's so good and euphoric

Cry all night long i'm exausted
I don't know where this phase started, and i have to make some suppositions for make it stop:
My screen time increase drastically (coding) i know that is very bad for me but i enjoyed it (maybe is one of the first factor)
feeling alone and frustrated by unclarity
this studio but there (they?) were sleepy nights in it
myself or others but i think that's the same because inter-relation (i'm ok to change i love discussions)
my periods are coming and it's always the hell of depression before
my activism is not fullfilled
maybe it's just my magical girl awakening, or alien9
alien9

_______________________________________________________________ After 20pm no screen and read a book and finish my tapestry
did it ! but tapestry takes tiiiiime
I'm currently reading the book of ursula le guin earthsea, i don't understand everything because it's in english but i really love the magical world and how this is writed. My language knowledges don't allow me to capt the relationships between characters so i hope it's not too bad

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iN0Z9YbP43Q new Linh's videooooooooo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkRk8kB_2h4&t=122s and one of cloooooooooot
cavetown + Linh + Cloot on the same day feels like a hot chocolate or a matcha latte with friends

I think i have to take all the time i put in others in me for a little moment, think about what makes me happy

A person who i forgot their name said to me that there is something mardi et jeudi for aps at (the brass?) all day long, need to do my agenda, next week is going to be vry busy
presentation de un illustrateur qui parle de son boulot j'ai oublié son nom ça ressemblait à chachoucha
my pc dosnt have battery anymore but i want to talk about all what sable teached me today, my friends, my school and all i learn everyday, offer gifts to malo, crossed many smiling people and Lou say to me that they loves to see me at school, share apples (zélie and mathilde were so happy), saw awesome artworks of Sarah, need to catch up with doudou, crossed emma et yona, i love people so much
wants to be a sun, not a satellite, i'm alive, an organic presence. A star in connection with others, a constellation of lives with our univers in permanent involution and i think it's beautifull

° Faire mon cv (montrer à malo)
° Dig calibre
° envoyer dessin handivergence, crashtest

Spoke about the inner hamster with Malo and it was hilarious
imitate striptease with sable like "crack" fufufufufaahaha

Hold my tears all morning. Had an interaction with the gorgous guy of "brut de farm" they didn't hear me so they gently ask me again what i said. My friend Rosa spoke to me with her beautifull aura, i just need empathy. I need love but i don't want to be a vampire who sucks others. My friends are around me atm. Malo show me his website, it's so cute and brilliant, just like him. iano said that i look like i'm going to be punch by them.
the universe doesn't stop

Sable come, talk about her projects. They don't talk about "la colloc" without a side eye to me. I'm struggling with that story. I have the feeling that i'm loosing my family

Trying more "html rawlook" without css cause it's look good i think but it's look like i didn't built it (that's the case and it's embarrass me
I did it, going out of my room, i put my earplugs and stop crying, was just overstimulated. Crossed my friend, smile at them "you look tired" they said, and the boucan sucked the moment. Do my business, my silly little drawings, they go out eating. I isolate myself more and more.
Need to go to the park, see nature. Maybe send a message to my terrapist.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgB7aDp40Y4

Cavetown new releaaaaase didn't sleep these night my skin is etchy don't care if you love me, don't care if you need me, i try to survive thats so wrong